Ten years after Lisbon, I had to conclude that running away from the void was no longer working. What was I actually doing? All those questions that had always preoccupied me came rushing back: What am I doing this for? What do I really find important in this life? What do I really want to commit to? Who, really, am I?
During the two-year search that followed, I tossed out many of my old convictions, and a lot of new doors opened. As a result, I’ve undergone a transformation.
I look at the world differently now. I experience life differently. I especially look at myself differently, and I have a better understanding of why I’m here. I’m more in touch with, and have more feeling for, everything I do. “Feeling,” which for me had always taken a back seat to the rational mind, has assumed a more leading role.
The feelings of emptiness and loneliness have disappeared. Now, instead of nothing having meaning, everything has meaning. My life is getting richer and more beautiful by the day.
I have become happier, more optimistic, and, above all, content. Who I am and what I do have a place, and I have a sense of Purpose. I have made a number of conscious choices, which have helped me enormously. They have given the undercurrent of my life more Purpose and direction.
That sense of Purpose doesn’t come from thin air. We have to develop a feel for it.